Sorry, XXMXN

how many years i noe u?
i noe you near 7 or 8 years....
the problems is always surrounding us within these years
i really noe wat u means to me
i really noe how much u care for me
n i noe how much u done for me
n i am the one who always just accept and accept
n i refuse refuse n refuse
now i escape n escape
wth im doing now
the first time
my heart pain until i can't breath for you
the first time
my tears turning around my eyes but not dropped
the first time
i keep thinking on you
what u are going to do when i tell u
i noe im caring you...but not loves
maybe im too understand what r u thinking
maybe v are too understand with each others
i just wanna b fair to you
i dunwan to cheat you that
yes im not really nvr think to giv a chance for us
i agree with wat others tell me too...
n i feel very warm when u tell me everything n everything
i feel sweet when reading all ur message sumtimes
but i duno wat the heck happen with me
why im so stupid that i cannot choose you?!
so many ppl want you but you dun care
n u being choosen a person tat always hurting u....
i really never ever wanna hurt u
but i always do so............
why u r not others.......
i wish u r others but not u..........
if u r others how good is tat
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
finally i understand the pain.....
pain until got no feeling ady
forgive me with my truth
forgive me with my naive
leave me alone
i should stay alone n alone
single cheersss......

彷徨与犹豫

一直以为什么都没有了
可是还是一直在有
什么啦。。。。
说真的这几天我每天都在想
好像可以，但是我跃不过自己的那座桥
因为我还是会想到他
因为我还是会耿耿于怀
因为我自己也不知道怎样了
我更不想再伤害你
再来的会是更痛的！
你我也知道。。。。
也许时间真的可以证明一切。。。
就顺其自然好了。。。
其实我还是会想念你
可是我就是没有答案~~~

Chinese New Year 2010

An unforgettable CNY for 22 years....
grandma pass away....seems like lost a very important part in family
everyone mention her....
everyone miss her so much
wat to do.....we just accept the truth....
went out the whole day n night for this short term holiday
n cut my hair....yerrr why say me act cute...
not ler...just to b trendy....
start to love this hair style...
but very hot...LOL! bcos can cheat people im young....
anyway today back to the suck island again.....
wth welcome me with no water supply........
argghhhh stil got 70+ day to stay here....
wat a nice place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wuhuuu just to keep it up....
im gonna graduate soon leave this place....
i hate this place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bad luck bad luck

arghhhhhhh
why bad luck always come to me now..
broke im broke!!!!!!!!!!!
wth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!@#$!@#!#@#!@
stupid mas operators!!!
wat a very expensive experience!!!!!!!
i really duno why they can do so to cancel my flight
walao i ady reserve my place doesn't means i go the right now meh >.<
i cant be happy with wat had happen nowaday
wat can cheer me
i also duno.......
im really fucking tired with all of that!!!!
good luck please back to me
bless me after this.....
i dunwan to lost any money again
haiz tot can pass this last sem without so much maggie life
now i think i have to do so!!!!!!!
hate it hate it!!!!!
i need a job
i need money
i need freedom
i need happy
fucking pressssuurree!!!!!!! can i scream whole day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

婆婆，我们永远爱你

也许你看到这个，也会晴天霹雳
但是它是事实，我也不想接受
我还可以怎样，恨不得紧紧地抱着她
一切一切不停浮现在我脑海里
从小我就跟着婆婆生活
幼稚园上课回家，就会蹲着小水沟旁
她就帮我们刷牙冲凉。。。
家里的早餐，午餐还是晚餐
她一切包办。。。现在我已经没有这个机会了
前几个星期，也因为电话费我才会跟她聊天
也许是上天的眷顾，我第一次跟她聊天
聊这么久，内容就依稀的记得她想念她的孙儿们
很遗憾的，她有不孝的儿子
连母亲都不认了，你们这些不孝的，你后悔吗
还是你还是无动于衷。。。
前几天半夜，肚子痛进了医院
一直以为是小事，也一直没有那个机会问候她
今天早上，突然接到阿姨的电话
一直一直地祈祷
结果还是走了。。。
为什么这么狠心，我们都还没回来
我也快毕业了，我可以开始找工作
可以让家里的环境变得更好
一直想象不到没有婆婆的家
会是怎样。。。。。。。。
一样那么热闹吗
还是大家就酱一走了之
只有一时的聚会，这些已经不重要了吗
婆婆为这个家，担当不少
因为她的威严，大家还不怎么敢反抗
虽然她常常碎碎念，因为她要保护我们
为我们全部人好
今天收到这个消息
大家接受不了
大家失声痛哭
一直以来我们就是跟着她长大
今天她放弃大家了
也许她也很累很累了
是时候脱离一切
我也知道我不可以酱颓废
我的脑袋一片空白
我的头很痛很痛
但是我不可以酱休息下来
说真的，很感动
关心我的朋友们
谢谢你们
再给我一点点时间
我会坚强，我也会加油
希望婆婆去到一个让她脱离一切的天堂
因为她真的受够了
婆婆安息吧，我们永远怀念你，想念你，爱你！！