the 152th post

Wee...I am back to my bloggie again...

what should i share now?

Recently so far so good...
have a permenant job
have my healthy life
have my home sweet home
of course and my him~

however i felt the problem coming very soon...
no idea to solve it...
this is because of those stupid thinking..
21st century who cares so much...
everytime traditional and culture...
poke here poke there...
i don't wish to stand anymore on that please
what i wish to say

the relationship between you and him
is how both of you going to contribute
not always just listen to those predictor
harlo...there have no one can predict your own future
however...
we still try our best!!!
to prove and to be learn too...

and here...i saw another past of me..
i200% know the feeling that being so stupid there
as long as you know the friends beside you stil care about you
and yeap of course you are stil young...
no matter how begging someone come back to you
its a dumb decision
just go through someday you will realize that
without him you are still so freedom n wonderful
good luck for you my dear...
time will prove that everything happenning
what its call L.I.F.E

love your life...love yourself!!

i HEART you

I love my life right now because of YOU

thanks for everything

Every time when you are asking me

Why at last I finally accept you

I' ll just smile and felt very shy

nothing why...

its just because of your every single pieces matter

because we got no barriers

because we ever lost & lose

and we appreciate!!

Its just simply as a piece of cake between you and me

i just want to stay with you every moment we be with together

muacks i love you, simon ~~

合唱

合唱对我来说，有过不同的快乐，不同的刺激
昨天我的合唱团又到中国-绍兴比赛啦！
而我现在静静坐着这里回想前一届的我
还记得身在中国无比的快乐，
那是我第一次搭飞机，跟我的一群好朋友
无忧无虑一起很开心的参与比赛


现在我当然也更想参与，只因某些原因我不能酱做
长大了，还是有长大后的忧虑。。。
今天泽俊说，他在开幕现场
听到后好像很落寞
如果我在，有多好啊。。。
虽然很闷但还是可以看到不一样的东西
但是我身在马来西亚！！我没得参与
有点感慨之余，也有点后悔
钱啊钱！你真的很重要哦。。。
结果我去找回了我们在中国一起拍的照片
哈！真开心~~

爱唱歌没有不好，只是为什么每次的练习一定没有结束的时间
到底出了什么问题？纪律？态度？
很老实的说，现在我也不怎么喜欢与大家练唱的态度了
因为那种感觉不对了，这也是为什么我不练唱了
恕我直言，合唱不分你我，没有分得谁付出什么
那天的我回团探访，就让我听到这个
我心里就是很不爽，那之前我们付出的不是要一笔一笔
摊出来吗？也许这就是80与90年代的代沟
也没想讽刺谁，只是因为我们的喜欢
而加入这个合唱的大家庭
一家人就要不分你我！！
也许就是这一点让大家少了很多的建立默契的轨道
小朋友们，你们都很棒，好好想想怎样建立这个默契
如果你们建立了默契，你们会更棒！！



我爱合唱！只因为你，让我遇见了懂得珍惜我的人！
也许上天赐给我的礼物就是在合唱里我找到了你！

祝大家可以旗开得胜，为马来西亚争光咯！！

加油加油！！！！

Sunday Date

Sunday Date
it seems hard for us....
but we have the chances ;)
im so happy actually dear...
today is the day tat u not beside me again
but while u r sending me a lot of photo
tat i felt sumthing good tat lik u r beside me everytime
n wat i plan to do today is to update my dead blog
ops im very tired after my internship had started...
i got no time to update my blog
i stil rmb the night that i told u many stuff about HIM
i felt good with all that v can sharing tat so truly
hope it will b lasting tat v always n ever sharing
nothing important about the past
it jz some memorable moment
and also
today results is out...
OMG seems lik get a bad results ever for my study life
wish tat i can score a better grade in my internship
so tat i wont felt so sorry to myself again
and dear, thank you for cheering me up tonight
just to be with you!

不一样的夜

6月14日第一次我们不见面。。。感觉就颓废一个晚上
看戏睡觉。。。。

6月15日，你回来了！
今天让我感觉很不一样
因为晚餐与你家人一起度过
哈哈丰富的日本餐
感觉好温馨~~

7月你又要去中国了
哇哈哈10天
考验？！
不可以。。。。
越来越习惯有你在身边
你啦！！！！
anyway 还是要谢谢你在这个月给我的一切
我们会好好在一起！！=) <3

降临我的家园

我回来了！三年就酱过了
发生了什么事？
隐隐约约的记忆有点模糊
好像也有点不舍
因为我离开了读书生涯
走入社会大学
当然很不一样
书是死的
生活的观念与应用
今天领悟了一些些
面试虽然很不样
当然还是被下了马威
新办公室竟然有属于我的位子
我一定要好好虚心学习
因为大家都认为大学生
态度傲慢爱逞强
假厉害
以上罪名我不可以犯
不然就太烂了~~



最近家里发生了一些事
鸡犬不宁！
希望一切可以快点解决
大家都不能自由出入
每天提心吊胆
那天看到那些人
我全身发抖
每天等待吗
这种感觉真的很不好受
唉我也无言
游手好闲的家伙
你们很烂！！

the last few hours in LABUAN

say byebye to the study life....
few hours later i ll back again to my home
the feeling is excited n hope there is another new better life
everything is over right now here
i finish my degree here
unforgettable university life
i left my home for 3 years ago
i left every bad thing here --- labuan
anyway it still farewell with no water supply from yesterday
no matter how left few hours more
looking around n around
throw wat ever stuff that cant effort bring back
hope all the bad luck go away from me n my family...
i know my family is happy to wait me back...
i ll just shout very loudly
I AM BACK TO KLANG AGAIN!!!!!!!!
see you guys...... ;)

Last Battle for the Exam

Wow few more hours later...
i am going to step to Dewan Utama again
for the last final exam for my entire life!!!
anyway my revision still half way on...
arghhh playful heart whole day!!
now only blame on myself lack of time
yak you stupid ng shy wei....
waste the time....
haixxxx
wish all of my friend who having exam
all the best n fighting until the last~~
G O O D _ L U C K

我们要好好在一起！！♥

哇昨天的一番谈话
我输了！
人不可貌相，海水不可斗量
原来你可以酱
原来我也不是那么的了解你
原来你在我心里的形象可以这么的好
事实上你不是
好像一个很大很大的石头压在我心里
我一直问自己
我到底介意什么
可能一时之间我不能接受那样的你
可能我好像不可以接受酱的事情
竟然发生在你身上
可是如果你没有跟我讲这些
我一直很介意
啊，可是你讲了
让我真的很很很很不好受
到底怎么了
我也很不明白
也许从一开始
你的好已经深深烙印在我的脑海里
你在我心里真的是一个很好很好的人！
也有可能那个人真的太美了！
连我也可以觉得很诱惑！！
也许我也很怕输
也许这是多余的想法
可是我直接感受到的威胁感
我也知道现在并没有什么
哪怕有一天
事情结果发生了对象还是他
我真的会一走了之。。。
想太多了吧！
也许在七年前认识你
已经是一个没完没了的关系
也许你我的相识
就是上帝的安排与考验
是的，一直以来我觉得很亏欠你
可是当我做这个决定
我真的需要很大的勇气
接受外来者怎样看待我和你
因为我真的不想酱拖拖拉拉
拖泥带水
为什么要有他的存在
也像你说的为什么一定是他先
我知道很不公平
也许为什么我不说不承诺
是因为我还需要时间
抹干一切清清楚楚地
跟外界宣布这一段感情
我真的要很公平的对待你
而不是因为亏欠所以答应
我也不可能可以酱去接受酱的关系
当我踏出这一步
就没有后悔的余地
谢谢你可以那样的信任
感情里的信任是我一大的败笔
从哪里跌倒了就从哪里爬起
我很想相信你可是那个东西一直浮现
很自私的我就是很有占有欲
也请以后不会有酱的事发生
时间可以慢慢的掩盖
哪怕有一天我忘了酱的一回事
或许在其他事情
我可以很理智很理智的告诉自己
我可以很巧妙很聪明扭转
可是这个游戏玩大了
就没有收拾的余地
这真的会是我们的最后一次了
我更想珍惜你我的一切
我真的很想浩浩荡荡，疯狂地跟你在一起
我把自己封锁的好久好久
我不要再自己一个人承受了
我才不怕他人的指指点点
喜欢就是喜欢
也许这个就是无可药救的地步了！！
如果可以的话
我们一定要好好在一起！！
谢谢你付出的一切
我也可以很努力地为你付出我的真心！

Nostalgia Night 2010 - Farewell Party

THE NOSTALGIA NIGHT (3/4/2010)

Time flies....
left 30+ day my study life will be ended...
recall back for last year...
i attended this party night for the previous year...
anyway this year the place we having our prom night
it is better than previous one....
deng deng...the first time go TIARA Resort
nice place~~~
of course the pretty ladies will tidy up ourself nicely
haha of course i included~~~
show some picture later on...
what to say...
deep inside my heart when looking the picture slide
that junior prepare 4 us
many scene flows up in my mind
i have been study alone far away from my hometown for 3 years
its time to back my place again
even though the memories here doesn't so memorable
but we ever pass our 3 years life here--LABUAN
we being force to stay here without normal water supply for year
and v being go travel around with friend
and the first time i got my roommate sharing my life....
learning how to be tolerate with each others
knowing many types of people in every junction LOL!
how their attitude, their thinking and many many more...
HOWEVER....
university life suppose to be enjoyable and crazy
but i think i nvr explore myself to the freedom life here
maybe theres many thing happen withing these year
and now everything pass
and NG SHY WEI are back to the nature~~~
people outside there.....
do you enjoy ur life?
I DO!!! i HEART my life!!!
appreciate and be tough to go through outside world again!!
all the best to you!!!

my look for the days...muahaha i love this picture bcos seems lik very pretty =p

my sista~~

act cute with princess lulu LOL :p

the beautiful girl....agree?! =)

23岁转辗点

Weeee im back....
so sorry tat i left out for the long time
because March really damn damn busy
im busy with assignment, presentation
n also LAZY muahaha....
jz pass my birthday~~
OMG im 23 years old now...
haha 2010 really a big challenging year for me
first of all is my dearest grandma pass away
second i gonna graduate very soon
third i going to explore myself to another social city
i have to start work n earn money start to b nervous with...
stil got 40+ day my study gonna ends
so this few weeks trying to enjoy myself
with wat i haven done
get a birthday celebration with
my university coursemate and friends
attend another event
which is my course farewell party took a lot of picture....
haha share some here....
chaoz...wanna take a rest.....
hope everything gonna be fine~~~
GOD BLESS everyone of you!!!

Memorable

Just now brother send me a web page
is where my grandma "stay" after she leave
a very peaceful place...
hope everything is fine there...
suddenly miss her a lot...
every night before sleep
surely ll think about her
here is some picture...



wish May coming fast n soon....
then i can go visit her again....

Sorry, XXMXN

how many years i noe u?
i noe you near 7 or 8 years....
the problems is always surrounding us within these years
i really noe wat u means to me
i really noe how much u care for me
n i noe how much u done for me
n i am the one who always just accept and accept
n i refuse refuse n refuse
now i escape n escape
wth im doing now
the first time
my heart pain until i can't breath for you
the first time
my tears turning around my eyes but not dropped
the first time
i keep thinking on you
what u are going to do when i tell u
i noe im caring you...but not loves
maybe im too understand what r u thinking
maybe v are too understand with each others
i just wanna b fair to you
i dunwan to cheat you that
yes im not really nvr think to giv a chance for us
i agree with wat others tell me too...
n i feel very warm when u tell me everything n everything
i feel sweet when reading all ur message sumtimes
but i duno wat the heck happen with me
why im so stupid that i cannot choose you?!
so many ppl want you but you dun care
n u being choosen a person tat always hurting u....
i really never ever wanna hurt u
but i always do so............
why u r not others.......
i wish u r others but not u..........
if u r others how good is tat
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
finally i understand the pain.....
pain until got no feeling ady
forgive me with my truth
forgive me with my naive
leave me alone
i should stay alone n alone
single cheersss......

彷徨与犹豫

一直以为什么都没有了
可是还是一直在有
什么啦。。。。
说真的这几天我每天都在想
好像可以，但是我跃不过自己的那座桥
因为我还是会想到他
因为我还是会耿耿于怀
因为我自己也不知道怎样了
我更不想再伤害你
再来的会是更痛的！
你我也知道。。。。
也许时间真的可以证明一切。。。
就顺其自然好了。。。
其实我还是会想念你
可是我就是没有答案~~~

Chinese New Year 2010

An unforgettable CNY for 22 years....
grandma pass away....seems like lost a very important part in family
everyone mention her....
everyone miss her so much
wat to do.....we just accept the truth....
went out the whole day n night for this short term holiday
n cut my hair....yerrr why say me act cute...
not ler...just to b trendy....
start to love this hair style...
but very hot...LOL! bcos can cheat people im young....
anyway today back to the suck island again.....
wth welcome me with no water supply........
argghhhh stil got 70+ day to stay here....
wat a nice place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wuhuuu just to keep it up....
im gonna graduate soon leave this place....
i hate this place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bad luck bad luck

arghhhhhhh
why bad luck always come to me now..
broke im broke!!!!!!!!!!!
wth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!@#$!@#!#@#!@
stupid mas operators!!!
wat a very expensive experience!!!!!!!
i really duno why they can do so to cancel my flight
walao i ady reserve my place doesn't means i go the right now meh >.<
i cant be happy with wat had happen nowaday
wat can cheer me
i also duno.......
im really fucking tired with all of that!!!!
good luck please back to me
bless me after this.....
i dunwan to lost any money again
haiz tot can pass this last sem without so much maggie life
now i think i have to do so!!!!!!!
hate it hate it!!!!!
i need a job
i need money
i need freedom
i need happy
fucking pressssuurree!!!!!!! can i scream whole day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

婆婆，我们永远爱你

也许你看到这个，也会晴天霹雳
但是它是事实，我也不想接受
我还可以怎样，恨不得紧紧地抱着她
一切一切不停浮现在我脑海里
从小我就跟着婆婆生活
幼稚园上课回家，就会蹲着小水沟旁
她就帮我们刷牙冲凉。。。
家里的早餐，午餐还是晚餐
她一切包办。。。现在我已经没有这个机会了
前几个星期，也因为电话费我才会跟她聊天
也许是上天的眷顾，我第一次跟她聊天
聊这么久，内容就依稀的记得她想念她的孙儿们
很遗憾的，她有不孝的儿子
连母亲都不认了，你们这些不孝的，你后悔吗
还是你还是无动于衷。。。
前几天半夜，肚子痛进了医院
一直以为是小事，也一直没有那个机会问候她
今天早上，突然接到阿姨的电话
一直一直地祈祷
结果还是走了。。。
为什么这么狠心，我们都还没回来
我也快毕业了，我可以开始找工作
可以让家里的环境变得更好
一直想象不到没有婆婆的家
会是怎样。。。。。。。。
一样那么热闹吗
还是大家就酱一走了之
只有一时的聚会，这些已经不重要了吗
婆婆为这个家，担当不少
因为她的威严，大家还不怎么敢反抗
虽然她常常碎碎念，因为她要保护我们
为我们全部人好
今天收到这个消息
大家接受不了
大家失声痛哭
一直以来我们就是跟着她长大
今天她放弃大家了
也许她也很累很累了
是时候脱离一切
我也知道我不可以酱颓废
我的脑袋一片空白
我的头很痛很痛
但是我不可以酱休息下来
说真的，很感动
关心我的朋友们
谢谢你们
再给我一点点时间
我会坚强，我也会加油
希望婆婆去到一个让她脱离一切的天堂
因为她真的受够了
婆婆安息吧，我们永远怀念你，想念你，爱你！！

我爱黑涩棒棒堂之向偶像致敬舞蹈大赛

心里现在满满的激动
我爱黑涩棒棒堂看了连续几个月
今天我很激动的想要分享
太棒了！！！
第一次让我很感动的比赛
你们终于长大了，也许很多人认为
你们只不过是耍帅爱美或是娱乐咖
今天大家为自己致敬的偶像编舞表演
超精彩，来来一个一个讲
第一个是

小涵
对她其实我不是很喜欢，因为还是小姐一样，
最记得因为要扮秃头而哭了
跳舞还OK啦，有待进步

野兽
不要看他呆呆的，有把好歌声
最进面对镜头超会放电
很动感的舞蹈，赞赞赞！！

糖果
开始喜欢这个小女生
很甜美但也可以很狂野
当然少不了性感
不错我喜欢她的演出

玉兔
听说每个人都说她“台”
但今天表演也还好
不过记得她那次的“虎虎虎”
超搞笑我笑到疯了！

小马
一个有着外国人的脸庞
什么都由零开始
很努力的他，跳舞有帅到！
但是很少发言，但他就是帅哈哈哈！

蚊子
一个很好料的舞者
有着男生的体魄与力气
不过刚刚的表演平平
有点失望

洪诗
对她也没什么特别的印象
还不错的表演
GOOD JOB

小禄
爆牙哈哈，跟野兽一样很会唱歌
而且他唱的英语歌超好听的
第一个让我觉得台湾人的英语也不错的男生
舞蹈也很好的他只是太瘦了啦

小薰
泼妇骂街哈哈
像大婶一样
不过认真起来也不错哦~~
她是原著名
不过没有那么的会唱歌
今天看她酱跳，OKAY不错

虎牙
不善于说话不过舞蹈惊人
今天他表演那个
MICHAEL JACKSON
哇看傻了
他可以用膝盖跳“月球漫步”
厉害！！！！！

APPLE
一个容易恼羞成怒的学姐
不过最近看她跳舞
开始改观，她也可以耍帅的性感

阿杰
神经质的他
爱创作爱唱歌
认真起来是不错啦
我并没有讨厌他
只是觉得他很废啦

勇兔
蔡依琳的脸，帅妹
很喜欢她的表演
真的每次都那么的好
我喜欢的女生！！

鲔鱼
喇叭鱼哈哈
今天染了一头金发
造型什么都很用心
已经慢慢变成有担当的男生吧
而且最近玩游戏
超强的，每个人都怕他
也是冠军哦！！！

MeiMei
每次被人嫌弃肥
其实也还好吧
抚媚带性感的舞
也很有台风啦

好，这是本人的看法
绝对没有讽刺或不满
这辑就收下来存档
你们要慢慢进步咯 =）

手后不该问的10个问题

1.不要问为什么分手
【既然已经分手了,一切都没机会挽回,就算能,曾分手也只会成为你们心里的刺】

2.不要问他还有没有机会破镜重圆
【他给的答案只是那么一点安慰而已,那只会加深你的痛】

3.不要问还记不记得曾经快乐的时光
【分手了即使记得,在他眼中也只不过是回忆而已】

4.不要问我哪里比不上她
【他只会回答他哪里都比你好,也许他会后悔放弃你,但绝对不是分手时】

5.不要问为什么曾经给过的承诺现在却变儿戏
【没有能实现的承诺的,只有等待奇迹的傻瓜】

6.不要问还可不可以成为朋友
【那都是自欺欺人的,心里受过这么重的伤,能不能成为朋友,最清楚的人是你自己】

7.不要问十年后的分手纪念日你们能否见面
【他只会笑你只会说将来,而不懂珍惜曾经拥有的东西】

8.不要问为什么抛弃大家共同的理想
【理想原本是虚无的】

9.不要问为什么自己能够拒绝别人的诱惑,坚持为了真爱,而他却不能
【这世界上没有真爱,只有忍耐】

10.不要问他还爱你吗
【既然分手已经说出口,那就证明他已经不爱了】

给还在苦苦等待爱人回头的人

【如果你爱的人放弃了你,请放开自己,好让自己有机会爱别人,
痛,也只是暂时的,因为你只是被一个不珍惜自己的男人抛弃而已,
而他的痛是一辈子的,因为他失去了一个本该最珍惜的女人,
所以实际上最不幸的那个人肯定不是你】

I gonna used to be alone from now on.....

OOhh finally i know what's happen.....
i got no idea with our previous relationship
maybe we just feel lonely
and we are just needs somebody to accompany
yes i think i just can say so....
quite down for this few days...
duno who to tell and share this
i know it very early that we cannot be together
but im bad enough
what i don't get i will never give up sometimes
yes the part of devil of me.....
i have to pretend as an angel in front of you?!
i do so.....do you know you already hurt me
what such of nonsense you tell me previously
its a joke!!! i should never trust on what guy told me
sincerely i never want to trust guy
no idea with why or what happen
is im really fed up with what you guys told me
n FFK or anything else....
the girl...maybe i know who are she....
for me if you can't do anything
please never give people hopes or promise
you are fooling people around because of
he LAM you arr....
shit girl!! you are cheap enough then....
ops i don't want to blame anyone on this
but i really feel that i wanna tell you about this
u being fool!! JC please awake from your dreams
or you may just wait until she married LOL!!
okay enough on that......
i suppose to be alone same as the year before
im really used to be alone with
never step to people's land when you cant giv her anything!!!


OKIE!! share some warmness moments...
last few days, my phone balance never use more than RM15
lol to make sure i don't pay extra to digi
i ring to home.....for no reason
i cooking porridge with grandma
i think she really happy with we call back home
because mayb she bored everyday
when we are not beside her for schooling time
talk a lot of home stuff....
and she always told me
you must choose bf carefully....
lol!! maybe i always went out with those guy they never know
and they do know mr.lee very well for last few years
mentioned about him
no idea with that....
i got such a long time never see him or even chat with him
maybe he is in a process into another relationship
who knows.....
however im satisfied with what i had now
even im the single lady
but i got concern from my dear family members
n also my friends
yes few more days to go
my dearest friend and superb friend back again in Malaysia
when im frustrated, happy or stressed
i may find him....
and i wanna learn to bake a lot of cookies and cakes
yahoooo....monkey is back!!
elephant wish her faster back too!!!
i want to be with you all
every single moments.............
muacks love all of you but not those people that hurt me
LOL!!!
next week is my big days again.........
wish i can do well in my final year presentation!!!
not the best but i will try my best!!!
ouch and also i can done all the assignment before i enjoy my CNY's holiday
n study for my software engineering QUIZ too....
GOOD LUCK to me CIVY!!
wooohooooo :p

我们还是有缘无份

我也不想2010的第一篇是伤感的
但是最近我心常常浮现的一再是他
一个人可以说变就变吗
你当我是什么
玩偶？陪你无聊吹水？
说真的对你我已经无言啦
哪怕有一天你又会回来告诉我说
你最近忙得很，不好意识什么的
够了，我不需要那么卑微吧
我们原本就是不同世界的人
你要的不是我所需要的
对，金钱很重要！但对我来说
一颗真诚的心比任何东西都还要重要
你每次问我那些问题
我都拒绝你
原因很简单，因为我不觉得你诚心过
那种心态是让人很想捉狂
而不是让人安宁什么的
就是没有安全感嘛
所以我相信这些年来
你都是酱对待女生
问题应该出现在你身上，而不是那些女人
谁来告诉你，我不知道。。。。
就凭你要高攀一些东西
是不可能的，你还是找回那些跟你一样阶级的吧
讽刺的说，你没学历，没车子，没房子更不用想要有妻子
我知道你很努力工作但是你只有这些
可能吗？！无言。。。。。
我决定先走了，不要怪我无情
你真的没那么好。。。。。
希望你理解但你又永远不会知道
哈哈一句话，随缘~~~~
我们还是当朋友好了，我高攀不起你！！！